Radio silence - but not silent radio!

Last week ended up being devastating to my entertainment electronics. First I accidentally dropped my  on the floor resulting in several rows of dead pixels. Later on the same day I decided I'd listen to my iPod ("classic" 60G) on the way home only to discover a huge black dead spot on the screen. It seems the doodoopod has struck against something pointy, the thick glass surface is still perfectly intact but stuff underneath it is broken. I can barely see anything on the screen since the gash is on the left side. It lights jo, it works, and I can still listen to music, but it's impossible to actually see what I'm selecting.

As if all this wasn't enough, my precious laptop had a horrible battle with my teamug, and I'm sad to say the mug won. The result was some sort of shortcut that rendered the keyboard completely unsable and the "keys" continuously being used even though nobody was touching anything. I had big cry about it, since it was alle my own fault and really stupid, but luckily my boyfriend was there to make me feel better by saying that it can be fixed and that he knew a place where to take My Precious. Hopefully I'll heti it back on Friday or early next week. It's going to cost me a lot of money, so I desperately need to sell stuff to make up for the expense by selling stuff I don't need!

It really sucks being without my laptop, since I'm a total FB-addict and addicted to the Sims Social as well, haha. No but seriously, all my photos and music and MY WHOLE LIFE is on that thing! I already had some pictures edited and ready to be posted and things to write about, but all that has to wait. I tried to revive my ole laptop but after spending yesterday fighting with it I sorta gave up. It crashes when I try to use Digsby to IM people; it crashes when I have more than one tab open in Firefox; it completely refuses to install Skype so I could talk to my boyfriend...-__-# Not cool.

Well, at least my TV works (knock on wood) and I brought my radio home from work so I can listen to my favourite radio djs host their 55-hour bit for the Red Nose Day -charity radio marathon. YleX Aamu, yay!

The past and the future

Tähän ei kukaan suoranaisesti minua haastanut, mutta miusta tämä oli varsin kiinnostava "kiertopostaus", joten muistelenpas minäkin ajassa taaksepäin. Tosin koska olen jo ihan ikäloppu, niin lisäilen parit kohdat...

2006, after coming back home from Japan

Nobody actually challenged me to do this one, but I'm doing it anyway. Although because I'm pretty much ancient compared to other bloggers I added a couple...

October 21st 2006

20 vuotta stten... / 20 years ago...

 

- Olin jo koulukiusattu / I was already being bullied at school

- Sain kaikki vaatteeni sukulaisilta / All my clothes were hand-me-downs from relatives
- Olin jo ihastunut luokkalaiseeni poikaan / Already had a crush on a boy in my class

@Rockperry, Vaasa, 2007

Redhead, autumn 2007

 

15 vuotta sitten... / 15 years ago...

 

- Koulukiusaaminen jatkui yläasteella / Bullying continued in junior high
- Kärsin hirveistä päänsäryistä, johon mikään lääke ei tahtonut auttaa / I suffered from intense headaches and most painkillers wouldn't help
- Olin ikäiseni serkkutytön kanssa läheinen, ja kirjoittelimme toisillemme ahkerasti kirjeitä / I was close to a cousin of mine (same age), and we wrote letters to each other all the time
- Olin edelleen ihastunut samaan poikaan / Still had a crush on the same boy

2008

2008

 

10 vuotta sitten... / 10 years ago...

- Olin rakastunut ensimmäiseen poikaystävääni / I was in love with my first boyfiend
- Opiskelin englantia Oulun Yliopistossa / I was studying English in Oulu University
- Olin yksinäinen ja onneton / I was lonely and miserable

- Ainut ystäväni Oulussa totesi, ettei halua olla kanssani enää tekemisissä (välirikko, jota olen siitä lähtien ylläpitänyt, tuollaiset "ystävät" eivät ansaitse kysellä kuulumisiani myöhemmin elämässä / My only friend in Oulu decided she didn't want to have anything to do with me anymore (which I've then upkept, because "friends" like that don't deserve to come asking how I've been since)

Autumn 2008

 

5 vuotta sitten... / 5 years ago...

- Olin koulutukseeni liittyvässä työharjoittelussa IHAN väärässä paikassa / I was doing my study-related practical training in the absolute worst place I could choose, in more ways than one
-Erosin amerikkalaisesta poikaystävästäni / I broke up with my American boyfriend
- Elämäni muuttui lopullisesti, kun menetin pikkusiskoni / My life changed forever when I lost my baby sister
- Tapasin nykyiset parhaat ystäväni / I met my two current best friends
- Tapasin myös miehen, joka osoittautui todella tärkeäksi tueksi elämäni vaikeimpana aikana, ystävystyimme, rakastuimme ja muutimme saman katon alle lähes samantien, osittain olosuhteiden pakosta. / I also met the man who would turn out to be an irreplaceable support during the toughest time in my life. We became friends, fell in love and moved under the same roof almost immediately, partly due to difficult circumstances.

January 2009

 

3 vuotta sitten... / 3 years ago... 

- Olimme muuttaneet erillemme jo aiemmin, mutta myös suhde päätyi eroon / We had already moved to separate appartments, and the relationship also came to its end
- Olin todella masentunut ja voin henkisesti pahoin / I was totally depressed and in a really bad place mentally
- Asuin yhdessä Pupuhypyn kanssa kämppiksinä / Pupuhyppy and I were living together as roommates
- Kävimme kumpikin vaatetusalan koulutusta aikuispuolella / We were both attending evening classes for the basic seamstress papers (sorry, my head isn't really working atm..)

May 2009

 

1 vuosi sitten... / 1 year ago...

- Olin työtön / I was unemployed
- Olin turhauttavassa kaukosuhteessa, jonka päätin aika tasan näihin aikoihin / I was in a frustrating long-distance relationship that I ended pretty much exactly a year ago
- Minulla oli 2 rottaa ja 3 hiirtä lemmikkinä / My pets were two rats and three mice

August 2009

 

Kuluneena vuonna... / The past year....

- Olen yrittänyt pitää kokonaisvaltaisesti parempaa huolta itsestäni / I've been trying to take better care of myself, both physically and mentally
- Olen yllättänyt itseni ja ystäväni omalla käytökselläni / I've surprised both myself and my friends with my behaviour
- Ollut töissä ja pitänyt siitä, mitä teen / Been working and liked what I do
- Kironnut jatkuvaa sadetta / Cursed the rain that never seems to end

September 2009

 

Eilen minä... / Yesterday I...

- Heräsin ilkeään migreeniin, ja jäin töistä kotiin potemaan kamalaa oloani / Woke up to a horrible migraine and stayed at home to try and not die
- Onnistuin nukkumaan vähän univelkaa kiinni / Managed to catch up a little on sleep

December 3009

 

Tänään minä... / Today I...

- Unohdin aamulla kotiin kaikki tarpeelliset asiat, kuten lompakkoni / Forgot everything important I would've needed during the day (e.g. my wallet)
- Olin aamulla vielä melkoisen huonossa kunnossa, mutta raahauduin silti töihin / Was still in pretty bad shape in the morning, but dragged my ass to work nonetheless
- En jaksanut olla kovinkaan sosiaalinen / Didn't have the energy to socialize with people at work
- Kävelin kaupungille vain huomatakseni, että lompakko on kotona sohvalla, joten en saanut nostettua rahaa tai haettua paketteja postista, kun henkkarit puuttui / Walked downtown just to find out that my wallet is at home, so I couldn't get any cash or pick up parcels from the post office because my ID was in my wallet
- Tulin kotiin pihisemaan kiukusta / Came home ready to break shit because I was so damn pissed off
- Kävin ruokakaupassa / Went grocery shopping
- Huomasin Restylelle tulleen uusia lepakkoaiheisia koruja ja laitoin samantien tilauksen menemään / Noticed Restyle had some new bat themed jewellery and instantly ordered two necklaces & a pair of hairclips

May 2010

 

Huomenna minä... / Tomorrow I...

- Kokeilen uudestaan sitä kaupungille tallustelua ja postissa piipahtamista / Will have another go at the post office to pick up my parcels and send out a couple
- Yritän IHAN OIKEASTI mennä ajoissa nukkumaan / Will ACTUALLY try to get to bed early
- Pyrin siivoilemaan tätä kämppääni / Will try to clean up my messy home

June 2010

 

Ylihuomenna minä... / The day after tomorrow I....

- Saatan mennä fiilistelemään Horror & Tease Showta Klubille (en ole vielä satavarmasti päättänyt) / Might go to Horror & Tease Show (I haven't fully decided yet, and don't have the ticket either)
- Nukun aamulla pitkään / Shall sleep in in the morning
- Nautin lasin taikka toisenkin hyvää valkkaria / Shall have a glass (or three) of good wine
- Vietän toivottavasti laatuaikaa poikaystäväni kanssa / Hopefully will spend some quality time with my boyfriend

March 2011

 

Vuoden päästä minä... / In a year I...

- Olen toivottavasti saanut jo Ihan Oikeita Töitä / Will hopefully have A Real Job
- Olen toivottavasti onnellinen / Will hopefully be happy
- Omistan ehkä lemmikin / Might own a pet
- Olen onnistunut laihtumaan vähintään 5kg / Will have lost a minimum of 5kg

~Misantrella

Liebster

I received this award from Chastel, so thank you, pretty girl! If you don't already follow her, go check out her blog, it's full of gloomy pictures and cool handicrafts. :)

Rules:

1) Post 11 facts about yourself.
2) Answer the questions the tagger has set for You.
3) Create 11 questions for the people You've tagged to answer.
4) Tag 11 people.


1. 11 Facts about me 
I ended up using the andthatswhoiam site as well, since it was easier. :)

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2. Tagger's questions

1. If you made a movie who would you want to act in it?
Hmm, tough one. I have no idea what my movie would be about, but I'd cast all or most of my favourites in it: Johnny Depp, Bruce Campbell, Bill Nighy, Nathan Fillion, Ryan Reynolds, Tony Leung Chiu Wai, Ashton Kutcher, Keira Knightley, Nicole Kidman, Tim Curry... I'd cast a hell of a lot of actors and a few actresses! :D

2. Do you have a favorite TV-show?

Several, actually. I love Castle, C.S.I. (Las Vegas, the others are crap), Supernatural, Dexter, Desperate Housewives, Bones, Spartacus ~ Blood and Sand, Game of Thrones, Scrubs, How I Met Your Mother, Happy Endings, Dead Like Me, Gilmore Girls, The Fast Show, True Blood, Fringe... Yeah, I'm addicted to tv! :D

3. Have you ever made some craft or art you're really proud of?Hmm, I can't really think of anything right now...two pairs of black woollen socks? I dunno.

4. What's your dream home like?My dream home is tastefully decorated with shades black, purple and silver in both furniture, linen, filigree ornaments and big enough to hold all my clothes and other crap! I'd have a separate room for sewing and crafts, a roomy kitchen, beautiful bedroom, a big luxurious bathroom with a gigantic tub...and someone else cleans it for me!

5. What's the last book you've read?I'm still actually reading the first book of Song of Ice and Fire, A Game of Thrones. One I recently finished is Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami, I got that one from my mom.
 
6. Do you have a favorite cosmetic or make-up product, and if so why is it so good?
I have yet to find my ultimate favourites in foundation (hoping my new BB cream would be good), mascara etc., but I like both the waterproof and regular eyeliner from Wet'n'Wild, as I do with We Care Icon blue liquid eyeliner. I also have a couple of cheapo eyeshadow palettes that have really gorgeous and pigmented shades that I really like. My skin is very oily but can still get pretty dry around my nose, so finding the perfect foundation is virtually impossible!

7. If you could eat only one food over and over for the next month what would it be?One food for a whopping month... I don't think I could eat just any one thing for a whole month - except for ice cream! :D Hmm, maybe pizza, cause then I could cheat and change the toppings every week?

8. If you were a superhero what would be your weakness?
Awesome, everyone always focuses on their superhero strength! Lets see...

9. What's the best thing about autumn?
All the colours when leaves start changing! And the fact that the weather starts to get a little cooler.

10. What was the nicest event you went this summer?Lumous Festival, I had a great time! :)

11. If you had to recommend a book for your readers what would it be?
 Well, I've been told the books I read are mostly trashy fantasy novels... So I won't go there, instead you HAVE TO check out Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman. It's been made into a miniseries too!

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3. 11 questions from me 
I'm going to skip this, sry.
 
4. I tag: 
See above.

10 pictures challenge

Paiskattiin muutamalla haasteella tässä jokunen aika sitten, joten voisinpa kuluttaa kotvasen aikaani niiden parissa. :)

Tindeltä ja Black Birdiltä sain tämän 10 kuvan haasteen, jonka "tarkoituksena on kertoa kymmenellä kuvalla, mistä aineksista blogisi on tehty. On haastavaa rajoittaa koko blogin aihepiiri kymmeneen kuvaan! Haasta viisi bloggaajaa samaan, ja muista kertoa keneltä itse sait kuvahaasteen! Mistä sinun blogisi on tehty? Sokerista, kukkasista, inkivääristä, kanelista?"

Hmm, voisinpa väittää, että blogini koostuu (varsin satunnaisessa järjestyksessä):

1. Meikki- ja kosmetiikkaostoksista / Makeup & cosmetics

Säästää piti, vaan tällaiset on tässä viikon sisään tullut osteltua...

2. Vaatehamstrailusta / Clothes

One of my Lumous outfits this year, loooove the corset ♥

3. Ystävistä / Friends

Iinamon ♥

DCF:n viimeksi piipahtaessa Tampereella käytiin katsomassa
Tampere Rollin' Hos vs. Tukholma Roller Derby -matsi
Pirkkalan liikuntatalolla.

4. Rakkaudenjanosta / My yearning for love

Pic from Google

5. Masennuksesta / Depression

Tällaisen pikkukaverin löysin yksi kesäaamu töihin lähtiessä. :(

6. Eläimistä ja niiden kapuusta / Animals

Ruuvi & Mutteri, already parted from this world

Raitapeppu, my little ninja mouse, RIP

Rölli

Mörri

Mökö

Kinuski

7. Kasveista ja kukkasista / Plants and flowers

One of my tomato plants has gotten huge! The other one, however, seems to be dying. :( The tomatoes they produces are TINY!

8. Ruoasta ja syömisestä / Food and eating

I bought a delicious slice of Pink Ribbon -cake at work :P

9. Satunnaisista käsityöaskareista / Random handicrafts

10. Elämästäni yleensä / Life in general

Okei, huijasin, ja tungin paljon enemmän kuvia kuin oli sallittua. So sue me.

~Misantrella

Tinde and Black bird both challenged me to do this 10 picture challenge, where you have to describe the content of your blog with only 10 pictures. What's your blog made of? Sugar and spice and everything nice? And yeah, I cheated and used way more pictures than allowed. So sue me. :P

I'm alive!

Kiitos teille kaikille lukijoille, jotka olette jaksaneet pysyä matkassa mukana jatkuvasti blogihiljaisuudesta ja ärsyttävistä angstipostauksista huolimatta. Kiitos myöskin kannustuksista ja ystävällisistä sanoista, ne piristävät todella paljon. ♥

Viime aikojen hiljaisuuteen on tällä kerralla ollut sentään positiivinen syy: törmäsin työn puitteissa kaltaiseeni miekkoseen, jonka kanssa totesin viihtyväni niin hyvin yhdessä, että pyysinpä häntä sitten seuralaisekseni Redemption Festivalin lauantaiklubille tuossa syyskuun alkupuoliskolla. Oli muuten kivat hippaloinnit, Otto Dix yllätti positiivisesti erikoisuudellaan, ja tuli tampattua voimalla koko Freakangelin keikan ajan. Olin liikenteessä tapahtuman suhteen myös jo perjantaina, jolloin tuli vain istuskeltua ja kuunneltua musiikkia. Goottimieskin näytti paljastavan todellisen luonteensa, enpä olisi uskonut. Ainoa mikä jäi harmittamaan on se, etten sitten päässytkään lemppaamaan tyyppiä suoraan kasvotusten. Noh, miulla oli kuitenkin jo tuossa vaiheessa ihan muut miekkoset mielessä, joten whatever..

Pretty awesome, the guy on the left had a really cool violin and the guy (yes, that's a man!) on the right was wearing a really awesome futuristic armour, led lights on his fingers and was waving the soviet flag. I was sitting in a corner far from the stage, so unfortunately this is the best pic I could get.

Mutta juu, päädyimme siis Arkistomiehen kanssa seurustelemaan, ja olemmekin viettäneet melko tehokkaasti aikaa yhdessä oikeastaan heti tuon ensitapaamisemme jälkeen. :) Olen varovaisen onnellinen, menneisyys kun on niin monesti todistanut onnen olevan vain hetkellistä. Satumme olemaan ehkä liiankin samanlaisia monessakin suhteessa, mukaanlukien ne huonotkin asiat. Tähän mennessä olemme onnistuneet riitelemään pariin otteeseen ihan täysin turhista ja pienistä asioista, ja koska kumpikin tuntuu olevan samanlainen itsepäinen ja mököttäväinen jäärä, niin pienetkin asiat muuttuvat helposti suuriksi vuoriksi. Menneisyyden haamut tuntuvat kulkevan mukana vähän turhankin tiiviisti, joten ongelmia saattaa olla vielä luvassa. Haluan kuitenkin keskittyä tähän hetkeen, mielestäni olen kuitenkin ansainnut onnellisuutta ja jonkun, jonka kanssa sen jakaa. :)

UFO shots, they're grrrrreat!

Tällä hetkellä olen kuitenkin harmikseni kipeänä, päälle yrittävä flunssanpoikanen yhdistettynä huonosti hoidettuun astmaani on saanut minut pysymään melko tiiviisti sohvalle käpertyneenä. Onneksi olen saanut aikaiseksi edes hyvää ruokaa! Tänään seuranani on ollut vain rakas läppärini ja telkkari, sillä miekkonen on viettänyt laatuaikaa kaverinsa kanssa. Huomenna varmaankin saan lämmittäjäkseni jälleen muutakin kuin viltin ja villasukat. :)

Baked potatoes with bacon-bell pepper filling, because fuck moderation! >:)

~Misantrella

I want to thank all of you readers who are still here despite the long silences and angsty posts, you guys are awesome! Thanks for all your kind words, I really appreciate them. ♥

For once the silence has been because of good things in my life - I met someone through work and enjoyed his company so much that I decided to ask him to accompany me to Redemption Festival in early September. Well, the feeling was mutual, and we've pretty much spent most of our free time together ever since. :) I'm pessimistically happy, since past has shown me time after time that happiness doesn't last. We may be even too much alike, in both good and bad, and it may yet cause problems. Our temperamental natures seem to make mountains out of molehills, but for now I just want to focus on being happy.

Unfortunately I'm a bit under the weather at the moment, I have a flu trying to grip me with its slimy fingers and that combined with my neglected asthma medication has kept me glued to my comfy sofa. At least I had the energy to go to the grocery store and cook some delicious food! And hopefully tomorrow I'll have something (read: someone) more to warm me than just woollen socks and a blanket. :)

Hair update - green and blonde

So I had green hair. Had. I sort of exchanged a necklace for some green hairdyes, and one Tuesday I just decided to begin the process. It was all very ex tempore, and I spent the whole freaking day bleaching, blonding and dyeing my hair. The result wasn't too bad, I had a lovely dark green and a bright poisonous green, and I mixed them up to a pretty cool combination. I also dyed my roots black.

I had visited my family ealier in the beginning of August since it was my brother's birthday, and DCF had also celebrated her birthday the week before. The weekend included (among other things) a very strange atmosphere (and cats! ♥) at a movie night hosted by friends, but this isn't about that, this is about hair. I asked my mom to cut it slightly, since I'd noticed some split ends. I'll admit, I screamed when I heard the scissors snap and saw a wad of hair come out, but she promised she only cut the worst dry part off and then evened it out. And my hair looks so much fuller and healthier! It felt so wonderful I kept playing with it the whole weekend. :) (Sounds dirty, when you take this out of context...)

Chopped off!

3 bleaches in I think?

After 5 or 6 bleaches

Anywho, after I washed my hair the first time after dyeing it, the green started to fade out. Eventually it just turned to horrible combination of dirty orange, bright blueish green, and ugly faded green. It was sort of appropriate for autumn, but looked just bad, so I bleached it out again. Alltogether I've bleached my hair 6 times now, and my roots are white with the rest of the hair gradually turning to orange/brown. It's still a work in progress, but I'm not touching the green again! Actually, I discovered an awesome shade of purple that looks amazing - at least in someone else's hair, and ordered some online. Also bought a silver shampoo to try and fix the "oranginess" out before trying on the purple.

Even though it looks kinda weird right now, I'm happy, because I've been missing blonde hair lately. Back in high school when I first dyed my hair it was really long and very blonde, and I have to admit - I loved it! :)

~Misantrella

Not much to say, is there a reason to stay?

So I've been feeling like shit again, hence no updates. I do have pictures of some recent shopping I've done, I've started doing something new with my hair and stuff, but just haven't been in the mood to focus on pretty much anything. In fact, it seems my depression has taken a step for the worse, seeing as I'm having a hard time getting these self-destructive thoughs out of my head. All because of a guy, how pathetic is that?! :( I've also skipped on taking my meds, which is causing me to feel somewhat under the weather. Headaches have become a familiar phenomenon throughout my day, but that's no surprise considering I've been bawling my eyes out. I can try and claim I'm over it, but no matter how many times I say it, it doesn't make it true. I was in a vulnerable state and after being so happy it just sucks to be shot down, even though I knew it could never be. Miserable thing, a heart. Can be broken while yet it remains perfectly intact.

~Misantrella